opportunities

The last few days have been incredible. Well, honestly the last month or so has been. I have learned so much in the process of applying to be a camp staff intern and field staff intern. I have been learning what it means to live moment by moment, to pray consisently, and to trust in the plan the Lord has already made for me.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Ephesians 4:6-7

This verse has taken on a whole new meaning for me. That's a command right there. Do not be anxious about anything. Period. End of discussion. Then, instead of being anxious, pray about everything. Recently, as I've been reading different scriptures, I've been looking a lot of words up in the dictionary. Usually I "know" what all the words mean, but it's so sweet to look up the words. I love to see what they actually mean. Petition is an earnest request. And that's what I've been doing. Earnestly requesting that he prepare my heart for the next 2 years of my life. Not that He would reveal to me exactly what I'll be doing, where I'll be, who I'll be with. But that my heart would be prepared for all of it. And then past that, then I present my requests. Me saying, from my small and insignificant point of view, I'd love this and I'd be comfortable with that. However, my requests are not the plan. Not always the best way. And so I'm open to what the Lord has for me. Not my will, yet yours be done. It is cool to see that, as a result from spending so much time with him and being so prayerful about things, that sometimes my will is the same as his. Crazy.

Another thing I've been realizing with this whole process is that the Lord has had my life planned out since the beginning of time. So whatever He has planned, is what's going to happen. My current favorite song is Our God by Chris Tomlin. One of the lines is: And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us. And if our God is with us, then what could stand against. I love that. If I'm supposed to be on YL staff in VA, then nothing in this entire world could stop me. And if I'm not, then nothing in this world could lead me there. Incredible. And what a relief!

The current update: I'm interning at Lake Champion this summer. And I'm so excited about it. I'm going on YL staff. And I'm so excited about this too. Where? Not sure. Praying for a prepared heart, but also for opportunities in the greater northeast and in VA. I'm praying that doors will be opened and closed and that I will be willing to listen when the call comes.